2X THE WRAPS!!!

Measurements on the right leg:
Foot and ankle are the same.
Calf is down 2 cms.
Thigh is up 2 cms.
I'm not really surprised by the thigh being up. By wrapping higher up on my leg, the fluid is getting redirected into the thigh. Honestly, I rather the fluid go up the leg and not down into the wounds.

Measurements on the left leg:
Due to the new foam pack being placed under the hose and on the scars, my ankle and toes are swollen. Minor set back. Although, now both legs are wrapped. The left one is wrapped to a much lesser extent than the right.

I have no appointments until Monday. That is also when the new Lymphedema clinic opens up, which is where I will start going for now on. I'm excited to have a fixed appointment spot!

My Knee Can Suck It. Hard. And Long.

My right knee is clearly a Nazi. It decided it was going to make a little pocket of fluid, then burst open, and then make it to where I can't swim until it heals. FUCKER. Even my other wounds are like "Hey asshole, DICK MOVE."

Speaking of the other wounds, the big angry blister has healed over and is gone. My 4 year old wound is so small, it looks like a teeny, tiny sliver of an incision. If it wasn't for my knee, I could have been in the pool by Friday. "Knees, the assholes of the legs." -Me

With the knee opening up, they decided to wrap a little higher. I can't lift that leg on my own, so they had to lift it for me. And they had to lift it even higher today, which killed my hip. It hurt so bad, but I didn't want to complain. Who wants to lift a big, fat girls leg anyways?

My left leg was up a little today. So now I have to wear a foam pack under the gosh damn "support hose." A.K.A Ugly old lady stockings that constantly fall down and are a bitch to put on. But hey! They are toeless and flipflop friendly, so I can't complain too much.


This is my left ankle. I don't think I've ever shown anyone. It hurts all the time and is really ugly. Stupid, ugly scars.

No appointment tomorrow... so far. They said they would call me if they had an opening. So. Tired.

On break until Monday

Alright, so after a crappy weekend my calf finally went down a few CMs and my wound isn't leaking anymore.

The appointment my mom went to wasn't bad. I was so afraid that they would make her feel guilty and tell her she was doing a crappy job. Luckily they didn't and she got a great refresher in massage and the art of wrapping.

I have NO appointments until Monday. This means my mom and I really have to stay on the ball with wrapping. No going unwrapped for a full night or afternoon. I just backtrack way too quickly and I am not willing to let that happen again.

:(

Oi, what shitty results. We had to wash and hang dry my bandages, so I wasn't wrapped over night. My calf was up 7 cms, which caused my 4 year old wound to have fluid pool and eventually drain out of it. My foot, ankle, and thigh were okay.

The fluid worries me. This could mean my wound is tunneling again and I would need debridement surgery. Debridement is so painful and the hole it creates is frightening. With my last debridement I could comfortably fit a baseball into the hole. I don't know how they could wrap me with a wound that large.

I'm also feeling really guilty about my mom. I think I make her come across as not caring about this whole process. It is the exact opposite. I don't know what to do. When I get in that room, I feel so much pressure to be positive and to be responsible for myself that I make it look like my mom is the fault of my regressions.* She's going to my appointment on Wednesday and I'm afraid of what they are going to say to her. I don't want them to make her feel bad because she doesn't need help feeling guilty about my legs.

No appointment tomorrow, Thursday, or Friday because my Grandma is returning to Texas to get some of her things. Wednesday's appointment is for 8 AM. That's right. 8. Fucking. AM.

All in all, I am not looking forward to Wednesday.





*Thanks, Robo. I hope I used that right.

Scabs and Centimeters - Yum.

Measurements:
Down 2-3 CM in ALL places. That's right, homeslices. I even unwrapped before going to bed to prevent my foot from losing circulation.

SCABS! SCABS! I HAVE SCABS! GLORIOUS SCABS! How attractive is that?

Since my heel is getting really sore, they had to add some extra padding and wrap my foot a certain way. It still hurts, so I don't know what they are going to do for it. We'll see!

Finally, an appointment in the afternoon. I don't think I could get up at 7 again. How do you people do it?

So sleepy

Okay, so this weekend was kinda crappy and I didn't get the results I wanted to today.

Measurements:
Thigh - Same, which is surprising because we've only been wrapping the lower leg. This means the fluid is moving up on its own.
Mid calf - Up 2 cm.
Ankle - Same
Foot - Same

Yesterday they didn't have room for me. They are so unbelievably busy all the time. I was also half asleep when they called and told me what time my appointment was for today, so I had to wake up super early today and verify the time.

My wounds are almost completely scabbed over. They are going to be beautiful scars in no time. After they finally scar over, I can get in the damn pool and lose weight. Stupid fat cells and their water retaining ways.

So they had a an observer come in and watch them wrap me up today. I think its great that more people want to go to school for massage and wrapping. They honestly save lives. It must be wonderful to make people feel normal again.

When I got home today, our power was out, so I just went in my room and fell asleep. I kept waking up because my heel was burning. I think that means the wraps are too tight and my circulation was getting cut off. I have a feeling that I'm gonna have to wake up in the middle of the night and unwrap. Unwrapping takes like 30 minutes because I have to completely roll everything back up. *falls asleep all tangled up*

Also, that "gel pack" is honestly just a bunch of cut up foam in a net stocking with both ends tied up. I wish I knew why it was called a gel pack. Maybe I'm just not getting it. :P

Steps Backwards

I needed people to leave my mom alone this weekend. I needed her to not be exhausted beyond belief. I needed people to leave us the hell alone for ONE day. I needed her to have just a little free time to help me wrap my legs because I can't do it alone. That's all I wanted. But my grandma is really stuck on trying to renovate my house so we can sell it. My mom works all day and comes home and has to work on stripping wallpaper, or pulling up carpet, or painting walls. So yeah, she's exhausted. She can't stay awake to help me wrap my legs.

I didn't make any progress this weekend. Infact, I took a few steps back.